So, i’m trying something different tonight. For some reason, i’m getting a little bit of inspiration to just write. No quotes, no pictures, just words on a blank sheet of paper.

i’ll admit that i’ve never been a writer. I’ve never been a person that’s totally comfortable writing about myself or about the things i’ve been through. Maybe it’s because i’m not totally comfortable with myself or maybe it’s because i have a really hard time just letting go and learning how to trust people. I feel like people get really frustrated with me because i have a really hard time letting people find out who i really am. Sometimes, i feel like if i give everything away- my thoughts, my fears, my feelings- that once that person decides to leave (which they always do at one point or another), i won’t have anything left to myself. I love my best friends, and i have no earthly idea what i would do without them, but they don’t know everything about me, and sometimes, it’s really hard because i want to feel like i can tell them everything.

There are still a ton of things that i have yet to learn, and for me, life is constantly showing me that i don’t know everything. I’m still learning. I’m still learning how to be a better person. And how to be a better friend. And i’m not perfect- far from it. It frustrates me when people think i’m perfect or that i try to act like i’m perfect i feel like people won’t respect you unless you have respect for yourself. People should love you for your heart, not because of what you look like or the things that you’ve done. If you show people your heart and how much you care about them, people will like you for you.

i'm trying; constantly trying- and struggling- to make sense out of this crazy world. There’s so many struggles and so many pressures that constantly weigh down on us.